Tuesday, December 04, 2007
Hello peeps. Whoa....first post since July 07...thats like what...4 mths?
nah i am not dead...just cldnt find the will to wrtite anything down here. Laziness is going to kill me one day.decided to post sth up today cos i seriously cldnt find anything else to do.
Well i guess this is it.Anyway i highly doubt anyone is reading my blog these days.Or maybe there is? i dunno...tag the blog if ur reading this lame entry so i know who are actually reading this...lol.
till the next post...have fun and good luck to u all.
[EDIT] Something just came into my mind. TO ALL LOSERS AND IDIOTS OUT THERE WHO CANT RESIST AND NEED TO VOICE OUT THEIR STUPID COMMENTS.PLESE LEAVE A NAME BEFORE LEAVING UR LAME ASS COMMENTS ON SOMEBODY. IF U CANT EVEN BOTHER TO LEAVE UR NAME BEHIND THEN PLEASE...DONT LEAVE ANYTHING BEHIND AT ALL.I AM SO SICK OF SEEING COMMENTS BY 'PASSER-BYS' OR 'ANONYMOUS' ON TAG BOARDS.
Jerome
8:32 PM
Tuesday, July 17, 2007
Its been like 3 mths since this blog was last updated i realised...And my tag board...seemed like a war just happened...either way...things have passed...i know who to trust , what i am doing , and who to listen to. But what i do noe is i do not need to heed advices posted from anonymous people randoming ard ppls blog juz to leave a comment for the sake of commenting..its...stupid.
3 mths...and lots of things happened within this 3 mths.really lots and lots of things.They say bad news spread like wildfire...which is true...cos events which is not posted in my blog...tad is meant to be private...seemed to be known to outsiders whom i dun even noe as well...thus resulting in the tag board arguing.Hmm...amazing isnt it.anyway...doesnt matter now.
3 mths...very eventful.but wad matters most is lesson learnt and tads it.dun repeat it again.Anyway hope things pick up for me.everything has been going down hill for me lately...have only seen a minor pick up in my life.
And 14th jul was montfort NCC 10th year annivesary...going back certainly brought back tons of fond memories in that 4 years of sec sch.The parade was an eye-opener.And also...a sense of shame came upon me...things tad i have once promised for the unit...i broke.I hope to be able to bring myself back to face the unit once again...
Will be keeping this blog updated when i can...
Jerome
1:16 AM
Monday, April 02, 2007
That silly girl of mine...she insisted on 3 things which i must do for her.And she named the first thing is to confess my love for her...hmmm...not only with i love u..lol...how cute.Well anyway...another promise...lol.
Now how do i go about confessing my love.hmm.I rmb when i first started to woo her abt...1 yr plus ago...i first confessed by saying i am guilty of liking her , And only ask for her liking in return...nth else. And the nxt day or so after tad...she woke me up early in the morning to tell me she is gonna wrap herself up as a christmas present for me...lol...tad really got me awake. The times tad came were sweet.first few mths i rmb her frens were envious of her becos like every new couple , the starting was the best. Troubles did present itself but still we managed to overcome the rocky times and still carried on.till we have today.Me and the silly mouse...who insisted i was flirting when i assured her i wasnt...now tads silly...and cute.lol.Now if i were to confess my love again...i wld say i am still guilty of many things.Guilty of still liking her , guilty of stealing her kisses , guilty of secretly watching her sleep , guilty of pinching her nose , guilty of disturbing her...guilty of so many things...
Man i have sinned so much...lol...may god forgive me for being so guilty...
Jerome
4:21 PM
Alrite...done with what i promised someone to do.=) lol...hope u are reading it fen...haha.
Anyway i came across an interesting story from someones blog.Hes a colleague of mine , his name is Edward , and i think a story like this is worth reading and should be shared.Here goes :
There was a blind girl who hated herself just because she's blind.She hated everyone, except her loving boyfriend. He's always there for her.She said that if she could only see the world, she would marry her boyfriend.One day, someone donated a pair of eyes to her and then she can see everything, including her boyfriend.Her boyfriend asked her, "now that you can see the world, will you marry me?" The girl was shocked when she saw that her boyfriend is blind too, and refused to marry him.Her boyfriend walked away in tears, and later wrote a letter to her saying."Just take care of my eyes dear."
The morale of this story doesnt juz only apply in love...but to life. very meaningful to me...hope it is for u too. And thanks edward if ur reading this...for getting this story.=)
Alrite...off to bed.Nite ppl:)
Jerome
1:57 AM
Alrite.Promised Fen i will do this for her.=) Here goes :
so, here's the rules : the player starts by giving 6 weird things about themselves.people get tagged need to write in their blog their 6 weird things.state the rules clearly.then, u need to choose 6 people to be tagged and list the names.leave them each a comment,to let them know you tagged them and to read your blog.
1.I can hear myself snore when i sleep...hmmm?
2. I talk alot to my dog...wonder if he can understand me...
3.I do the most thinking when i bathe.
4. I always wish i can fly like superman...=x
5.Talking to the mirror sometimes?????
6.I cant resist anything new.....hm
Ok...here comes the tagging part...i do not have much ppl to tag...so i guess can i skip it? lol
Jerome
1:50 AM
Monday, March 26, 2007
Might be thinking this blog is down.Long time since my last entry.Well i will try to keep this blog going...trying not to be lazy...or maybe i got not much time...either way.Guess i am juz lazy all this while. But hell its boring in the office anyway and i decided to read blogs.Well one blog exceptionally caught my attn...and it kinda affected me and set me thinking a lil.Well i will come to that later...and den i decided to look at my own blog.Which again set me thinking...
Well what are blogs? Basically an online diary where virtually anybody who juz happens to chance ur URL can view what goes on in ur everyday life...it may or may not affect the person reading it...unless u are associated with that person.And this blog which i read from time to time is kinda...very associating...which is why whatever entry in there is worth reading.But sometimes reading can be happy or heart wrenching or mind boggling , whatever u call it.
For now no details...speculations mostly.But hey...hows life? For me is always the same...deja vu? or not? i cant tell...sometimes i feel this kinda life is a blessing in diguise...or maybe a curse in a life time...whichever it maybe...it's nice once u get the full swing of events....Work , hang out , school , occasinal stay overs , games...kinda about it...oh oh...and the moment...hehe...man tad can nv be deja vu.(T.U.K?lol)
And sometimes maybe its true...friends can give u things which u will cherish till the very end.Just a quote from one of my bros "friends make life worth living".Its not only for me...but i believe for everyone out there...and i mean EVERYONE.So ppl , friends are forever and unlike love , friends are not blind.We only cherish love when we have them , but we cherish friends when we find them.Hmmm...doesnt make sense...but to hell with it...Friends rocks.
This blog is going to go on...so ppl...catch up...on my life tad is :)
*The last goodbye? or not...
Jerome
11:36 PM
Monday, January 29, 2007
Such a boring day actually...everyday is boring come to think of it.Its almost like deja vu...wake up...sch...work, like wad i have been doing everyday except saturdays and sundays...so mundane..
Well...the only interesting for today was my TCS presentation.Lol...long time since i don a formal wear...realise all my shirts are getting small...but still it feels good.Haha.Nervous in the beginning...but as it came nearer to my turn...i was brimming with confidence.Just had to take my classmates as those cadets and talk to them like one.Lol...Guranteed at least a B for my presentation now...a load off my mind.
School has always sucked.Wonder why in october i chose to quit my job and continue my studies instead.Should have just concentrated on working and going in NS instead.But i guess there is no room for regrets now.After all wads done cannot be undone and that damn cert is a minimum requirement for this screwed up society.
Mundane mundane mundane....I really wanna get my hands behind the wheel again and do sth crazy...i dunno wad...juz wanna be behind the wheel.
I told someone before.think it was thomas? I was saying...life is so meaningless.We are born.We live.We die.As to how we live..wad can we do?how interesting can things get?I always say to treasure and live life to the fullest...but are we actually doing it?Am I doing it? Life will only be interesting if lets say...apocalypse will come.End of the world.End of life.That way...i believe i will finally find an aim.find out wad i wanna do...i dunno...crazy thoughts....
*deja-vu again....
Jerome
8:31 PM
Tuesday, January 16, 2007
Its not a good day.It has nv been a good day.I seen my last post was sth unhappy.Sad for myself , this is gonna be another unhappy post too.
First thing first.Why the hell is this happening to me.Why does it have to be me! I want a happy family.I really do.A family which cares about everything and not just money talks.WTF do i even call this god forsaken place home?! This is not home.Its juz my resting nest.I come to this nest...i have someone to wash my clothes and make my bed.Thats all i can rmb feeling about this place. Hey wth...Which god damned 'mother', That is if u can even call her 'mother' , will tell her own damned son 'dun study not my prob'.I mean wth...SHE...a 'mother'...will rather lessen her burden by asking her son to work den to let him study??? WTF!?!?! I know...some u assholes out there might be thinking ''hey its only right.a son shld support his mum''.Well FUCK U to all those who are thinking tad way becos u noe nth about me.If she does not has the means to put me through study.FINE..i will accept it tad way.BUT HELL! SHE DOES! and where does all her money goes.GOD KNOWS! If i am brought up single handedly...fine...i understand.BUT HELL! can someone tell me which of my parents is dead??? GOD DAMNED THIS PLACE!! Its pushing me to a corner...hell i can call anyone 'mum' as long as she can provide me $300/mth.That is all there is to it.And $300/mth from her....its sth which i deserve (to all those who dunno anything about me.keep ur god damned mouth shut and think about sth else)
Second.I am not being unreasonable.I know i am not.Everything said to me drives between a comparison.I hate being compared.I dun even wan to compare.Comparing only brings me more despair,and anger.I know...maybe i am sensitive like u said.But to me that is only wad i felt.If saying out how i felt wld actually wrong someone, den why wld u even bother listening to how i feel.maybe it doesnt matter how i feel? words sometimes can be stronger den actions.different words put together can wholely mean sth which u may not have meant. And the way your words are put together , i do feel a comparison. One way or the other, Sorry if i wronged u out of sth which u think u did not do.Mistake from my part and over time i will try to void myself of all this sensitivity , or void myself from any forms of feelings for that matter.
See...to most or all.I always am the devil.I will forever be the devil.I AM THE DEVIL!.it doesnt matter to me anymore...nth matters to me anymore. Despair is all i can have now. right now i will sell myself to anyone just to rid me of this feeling of despair.i will do anything to rid myself of despair! god dammit...so wad if i finally shedded a tear or two. Anyway my tears cld mean nth right now.
I really wanna give up everything...give up everything and just stay lying on the ground waiting to be stepped and ridiculed upon.I have enough of standing up from all the falls.I am tired of everything...everything...nobody cares anymore...nth matters.
I wanna stop my tears.I wanna stop my life.I wanna stop everything....plz...juz stop...i really cant hold out any longer....
Jerome
8:08 PM
Tuesday, November 28, 2006
Sometimes things just happen and leave u wondering 'wtf is this?'
Yeah i suck, thats wad u said. I do remember what i promised.And yeah i did say i will not make promises for nothing. But wth , before i can even get my brain working after a long day, 'u suck' was the first thing u can say when i said 'huh?'. True it slipped my mind , probably because it slipped my mind at that time that made me suck...den so be it...i suck.And since i suck..den everything shouldnt matter regardless if i remember or not, afterall i am being condemned as 'u suck' regardless of anything or not. Hell probably the person who is suppose to be reading this wont be reading it anyway...cos i suck?????????
Frens say this fren say tad...to hell with what frens say.A relationship is meant for 2 person and thank you but i dun need comments or directions on how to run my own relationships.True i have people commenting on my relationship but i dun go round citing to other people or to the other party for that matter what kind of comments i received. A relationship is meant for 2 and i do not care what other people has to say about it. I appreciate all who have commented, really. I hear your comments, and thats it. Sorry for being blunt but this is not really a thank you notice. Come on...imagine having a quarrel and u suddenly hear sth like ' no wonder what my fren say about you is true...blah blah blah'...wth. If ur fren really has so many good advices and comments and is a good way for u to confirm your opinions and this and that...whatever...i dont care. I dun care what frens say about this and what frens say about that, i dun care because i am not listening. Get them to tell me in the face if u want...i dun give a damn about it anyway.You have your pride.I have mine.What u say maybe right, it still doesnt mean what i say is wrong.If i really am wrong, it still doesnt mean u are totally correct.
Jerome
11:24 PM
